Today has been the most horrible day in my entire life. Today I was contacted by a person who read what happened to my dogs in the paper and has been trying to get ahold of me since. He had managed to find out what floor I am on and was knocking on doors this morning (Mmmmm...Thursday morning) and knocked on JD's door asking for me. JD, not knowing who this person was asked a few questions and when he found out what the man had to say he stormed into my suite as I sat in my pjs watching the cartoon network. Obviously, what I'm about to say, is not a good thing.

What the man had to say was simple, to the point, and made me cry. Two years ago, his three years old rotty/german shepard was demanded to be put down by the court for attacking a cat and killing it. The woman who owned the cat demanded that he put down his dog, because she and some others witnessed what happened, but he was not at home when the event happened. The cat was proved to be a purbred cat and he was also forced to pay $10,000 for the cat. (starting to sound familar?) He too was stunned to find out that his gental dog would ever attack another living thing. His neighbors, who were also not home at the time of the event, swore that his dog was the most gental and loving dog in the entire neighborhood. He did not have his dog autopsied or the cat. But his vet had autopsied the cat out of his own curiousity. And what he found was that the cat had been euthinized and was very old. The cat was already dead before his dog even sniffed it. He brought the police back into the whole thing when his vet called him and told him what he found. The greiving woman was no where to be found. The address and phone number she had left with the police was invalid. It was a scam. That's not the sad part...the sad part was that the guy described the woman to me and guess what? Same. Woman. When he saw the small article in the paper he knew in his gut it was the same thing he went through two years ago. He lives out in Sutton and gets one of the London based newspapers. Well while JD was on the phone getting the same police that were here before back, I was on my cell calling the vet. Results have not come in, they may come in later today (Friday) I told him what was going on and he assured me that he would stay through the weekend if results don't come in Friday. We got the same dicks (detectives, although.....) back and the guy showed them the police file on the investigation that his local police had started and they (my police) called them (his police) and a sketch of the woman was faxed over and it was confirmed that it was the same woman who was here...I say was, because when we talked to the front desk here at the Hilton we found out that she checked out one day after the event happened. In the middle of the night. She paid cash for the room and had a fake ID. It's fake because the address is nonexistant. The guy asked me if I even questioned why there was no blood splattered everywhere, and I looked over at the head police guy and asked that question to him. I myself never saw the "murder" site completely. When they said no, I was sitting there staring at nothing with Van rubbing my back in an attempt to comfort me and I just looked over at the head dick and said "You made me put down two of my dogs for nothing. I do hope you are proud of yourselves." then stormed out of the living area and slammed my bedroom door. I slammed it so hard that a picture down the hall fell off the wall and broke. I don't know who cleaned that up. So now, I've got an investigation going. And I don't give a flying fuck. I don't care about the $10,000 I lost, what I care about I CAN'T get back. Two dead dogs. Two perfectly fine, loving dogs. There's nothing anyone can do about that. All because no one listened to me when I said I wanted to check everything out. NO ONE EVER LISTENS TO ME!

On another note, we're thinking about changing hotels....for a couple of reasons....one, it's a nice drive to Pinewood studios every damn day since we are in the middle of London (Park Lane for those who know) and two, according to everyone else but me, I'm not my loving happy self lately since the event and it's speculated that I should be in a different place that won't remind me day in and day out of what happened.....exspecially now. So we're looking at the Sheraton Skyline at London Heathrow. It's closer to the studio and a different everything. Which would mean I would have to relearn all the driving things. But that's fine. And I seriously doubt I'll ever forget this, but perhaps everyone is right. I'll let you know...although, that may not be the best of ideas, but since it is almost 2 am and I'm not in the right mind in anyway shape or form, oh fucking well. If a bunch of fans show up, we'll just change hotels again and not speak of it

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"So regardless of who wins next week, we have to leave Iraq in the next four years. Leaving may cause untold problems in Iraq. If that happens, I want it to be on Bush's shoulders.

Look, this is his fucking war. He started it, his administration planned it, and his administration botched it. I want his administration to see it through to it's end. I want them totally responsible for everything that happens in Iraq. I don't want one single thing to be blamed on John Kerry, should he win. Inheriting a totally unsalvageable situation, anything that goes wrong in Iraq will be jumped on by the right, "Hah! See? We told you John Kerry couldn't handle it!" regardless of whether or not Bush could have handled it any better. Kerry's failure to "win" Iraq will forever be counted against the Democrats for the next several decades.

No, this is Bush's mess, and I want him to finish it.

There is also the possibility, however, that Bush's grand plan will work: He will pacify Iraq, Democracy will bloom and spread throughout the Middle East, liberating the region's people from their oppressive regimes. I somehow doubt this very much. However, should pigs fly and he pulls it off, he deserves the credit for that also. Succeed or fail in Iraq, Bush deserves the credit for what happens.

On the domestic front, my reasoning is once again long-sighted. The short-term effects of another four years of Bush are said to be "disastrous" for this country. I agree and I disagree. I don't think he'd ever succeed at banning abortion (not without starting our own civil war), but he'd certainly manage to do some more damage economically, environmentally, etc.

But maybe that's what we need.

Look, the Republicans have primary control over all arms of the government. OK, fuckers, show us what you can do. This is your chance (you've already had two years). Put your money where your mouth is. This is their chance to really push all the issues that they stand for: smaller government, fiscal responsibility, less social programs, etc. Do it. Let's see how it works.

See, my suspicion is that it won't work. They won't accomplish what they've always talked about, and the things that they will accomplish will finally wake the rest of America up to their true agendas. As more middle-American families slide into poverty, perhaps they'll see that some things are far more important to this country than banning gay marriages. I don't know. But at the end of another four years of Bush, we'll either be decidedly better off, or decidedly worse off.

If we're worse off, then I bet we won't see another Republican in the white House for a decade and a half. Perhaps we need that backlash. I don't think Kerry can fix Bush's mistakes in four years, and I think if Kerry is elected, his failure to reverse Bush's incompetence will guarantee he won't be re-elected, and possibly open the White House to another Republican in 2008. Every reason I want Bush to win is based on long-term predictions and goals, and is overlooking the short-term effects of another four years of Bush. However, I want that fucker to finish what he started, and I want America to really see the effects of eight years of the this crew of incompetent radical ideologues."